it is so hard to catch my breath these days. life keeps speeding by and i keep grasping at moments. a long work day today & another trip tomorrow to another funeral has me spinning. focus and breath. i've just started reading "this i know: notes on unraveling the heart" and it has helped me realize it is ok to feel not ok. to not be "over it" - because i'm not. i'm hurting right now. and those little hushed moments are the only thing helping me breathe. focus. breathe. and for now, still cry.